In this country, if you are poor and sick, you are invisible. The government and the taxpayers despise you for \’helping yourself\’ to their pathetic \’benefits\’. They\’re not interested in treating the root of the problem — they\’re not interested in preventive health, only in palliative care. It\’s social Darwinism at its absolute fucking worst.
Stringing people along like this only renders some false sense of hope; like maybe next month or next year there will be coverage for something needed. Then I\’d be able to scrape whatever is left of my dignity and my ass off the floor and move on with my life. Tomorrow may be better, but today is always the same bullshit. Today is always counting pennies to make the $1 co-pay. Tomorrow is dreams of being almost up to speed with my friends; hell, tomorrow is having friends.
Today is just another day of being transfered phone line after extension after phone queue, only to have the line get disconnected and have to start all over again. Tomorrow is getting the allergy shots I missed last week due to fever from having surgery.
Today is my case manager asking if I\’ve had a baby recently and thinking that might be one way to get access to better health care, if only for a few months. Then abort the damn thing in January.
Today is being told I\’m still not officially considered a student at my school, despite having attended last semester. Tomorrow is desperately trying to sell 500 CDs in order to cover complete out-of-pocket tuition to the tune of $1,079 for six measly credits (plus text book fees).
Today isn\’t over yet. Tomorrow fucking terrifies me.