1. Loss of control.
    1. Abandonment.
    2. Pain — inflicted upon me that I cannot escape.
    3. Death — mine and others..
    4. Loss of freedom and autonomy; confinement.
    5. Falling from heights but also onto the ground.
    6. Emotions — returning to the emotional state I was in as a teen.
  2. The unknown.
    1. Anger in others.
    2. Depths of water.
    3. Darkness.
    4. Masks and decorative makeup.
    5. Monsters, ghosts, the things that live under the bed or in the closet or in my apartment before I open the front door upon arriving at home.
    6. Sleep — what will I dream, will I wake up, what will I wake up to?
  3. Violence.
    1. From the state.
    2. From individuals.
    3. From groups.
    4. From strangers.
    5. From people known to me.
    6. From the medical industrial complex.
  4. Nothingness.
    1. Nothing after death..
    2. Not living, not being alive.
    3. Nothing mattering. 
    4. Nothing being real.
  5. Social interaction.
    1. Rejection.
    2. Ridicule.
    3. Evaluation.
    4. Observation — lack of privacy.
  6. Not being believed.
    1. The Cassandra complex.
    2. Being considered hysterical.
  7. Fire and knives.
  8. Life not improving — for myself and others.
  9. Others taking advantage of me.
  10. Not being “enough” / being “too much.”
    1. Resilient enough.
    2. Smart enough.
    3. Educated enough.
    4. Savvy enough.
    5. Too disabled.
    6. Too poor.
    7. Too complicated.
    8. Too fucked up.