My period has finally decided to start. It has only been two months, and I did not need drugs to induce it this time. Thank the fucking christ.
So all these medical problems I have been having for years… one of my doctors finally put the pieces together, talked to my other doctors, and now everyone in convinced that I have had fibromyalgia since I got incredibly sick at the age of 13. They say there is little chance that I do not have it, but they are running the pressure point tests on me on the 20th to see what they say. They \’great thing\’ about FMS is that you can have it and still not have all the pressure points come back positive. They say if the pressure points do not all test positive, that they will say I am one of the people that they does not test positive, and that I have it anyway. Which I guess means they have basically decided that I do have it.
Another \’great thing\’ is that even if I have FMS, I still have arthritis (they are testing for which kind on the 20th, but they think it is rheumotoid), tendonitis, carpal tunnel syndrome and deteriorating cartiledge in my kneecaps.
The last \’great thing\’ is that if I do have FMS, they do not want to do the surgery on my carpal tunnels because the FMS causes pain, too, and the CTS surgery would only eliminate a small part of it but then make the surrounding pain worse because the arthritis will get worse with surgery.
I suppose I could get another opinion, but frankly, I have been on the phone all day and when both my physicians from the last two years, both my psychiatrists, my psychologists, my five physical therapists from the last year (knee and hands), my three orthopedists from the last two years and the rheumotologist who reviewed my faxed in files all agree, and I look at my medical history and the criteria for FMS, I can only concur. It makes total sense.
I am nowhere near 30, and yet since I was 13 I have had chronic migraines; severe dysmenorrhea; chronic tiredness and over all pain in every part of my body; difficulty concentrating and sleeping; limb jerking when I do sleep; rarely reaching REM sleep; never feeling rested after I sleep; stomach problems; sensitivity to smells, bright light, drugs/medication and food; arthritis, tendonitis, and deteriorating cartiledge in my knees; cognitive and memory impairment; random numbness, tingling and swelling all over my body; rosacea; perpetual dizziness… blah blah blah. This shit just makes sense, and to have all these problems be completely unrelated at such a young age… it is possible, sure, but none of this shit runs in the family, so not very likely.
There is no cure for FMS. Some people end up completely bed ridden. The only treatment is total life style change, sleep inducing drugs and pain killers.
This kind of changes everything, definitely my plans for this summer at the very least.
\”I\’ve never been afraid of any deviation, and I don\’t really care if you think I\’m strange, I ain\’t gonna change, and I\’m never gonna care about my my bad reputation\” Translation: when was the last time this shit got me down? It is not going to succeed now, either.
More on this after the 20th.
